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This is about creativity. About vanity, vulnerability and inabiltiy, demon and disease. About
the devil, about society's illusion, decadence, self-searching and discovering, experience and
memory, nightmare and another simple thing: love.
My statement. Monumental, irrevocable, hello and welcome to the truth of soul's hell. Come in.
My devil, your existance is a sweetly alluring lie. Delirium, agrycoma; the mutilation's origin is now hidden inside humanity. We produce, paint, create, and stage our own monumental ghost trains that drive us to world's end - beware, the imagination of evil is becoming our worst enemy. Demons of the brain, nightmares, tremor and pain, growing from the depth of soul - the divine human is finally able to create and destroy the essential of life.
Hell is the curse of waiting. Hell is loss, hell is pain of emotion, hell is intensity and hell is the ability to see. Daily life, trying to vegetate without screaming, being ripped off by your own dreams, killed by your own lover, pushed and dragged by fears. The demons will undermine your confused thoughts and swallow your dreams - and yet, yet, you are the one who summoned them. Caged within your own skin, compelled to crush your own trust that you stupidly laid upon charmingly singing landmines before they explode and splatter your gore into the sky. Mistakes are the curse of humanity and hope is a ban you cannot break without being broken. We'll blind ourselfs to donate our eyeballs to the royal princes on bright horses and we believe into science which is only about to make us realize how fragile we are. We buy mirrors just to see our own decay and eat marshmellows in front of the TV just to admire society's decadence. We try so desperately to save long lost memories just to experience how happiness changes shape to sorrow, love to hate and promises to mistakes. We cling on to art and music to take a glimpse at intensity - and floating at the peak we come to see, how dull and jolly the ordinary actually has been, before we left it.
We are the origin of what we fear the most.
This drawing is a symbol of my very personal abyss, a bottomless pit filled with pitch and tar, and a pair of beautiful eyeballs from my poison prince floating inside stinking liquid. An organized staging of my mental disorder, hello and welcome to my paradise circus. Fragmental story of my life, song of the past and a search for the self - troublesome like a needle in the haystack.
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So much THANK YOUs to ALL the artists who let me crawl into their art - I am so thankful that they
gave me permission to breathe the scent of true creation!! ~AbXynthetic, ~Reality_must_die (!) ,
~neogotic_jam, ~Keithwormwood, ~Alcholado, ~Seyk, ~erlondeiel, ~DekkiOn, ~nimra, ~Endling
and ~xiaocaca(with lovelovelove). ~The_real_indo (!), ~augustok, ~nailone, ~grazzap, ~imagilist,
~remnanceofplen, ~Valleysequence, ~Bernardumaine, ~A-neon-devil-breath, ~DDzim, ~Castalian
Visions, ~DroppingSanityFences, ~limnides, ~one-eyed-cat. GODLIKE.
YOU ARE SO FUCKING AMAZING. I fell in love with all of you and bow down to your feet.
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Hey, I used references, don't you mind. For all that anatomical stuff besides those feet at upper edge,
(therefore I have a bunch of books). By the way, I love books. I DO. For my own portait I took [link]
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and another photo for the teenyweeny little fly. Same for the humans. (Honestly, to make it more
true I should've used one of my poison prince, but he would just ruin my complete concept, bwargh)
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More than 90 complete hours of work, another assumed 50 for composing, organizing, pondering and in-/offwrapping of my utensils. Way to M U C H .
90cm x 69cm/ 300mg paper/ 2H, 2B, 5B pencils
Entertainment while drawing:
Movies: Die Einsteiger, Late show, 13 Semester - Der frühe Vogel kann mich mal, Beetlejuice, Couchgeflüster, Dinosaurier, In her shoes, Some like it hot, Mein Avatar und ich, Sp spielt das Leben, Im Juli, (Spiderman, Ratatouille and Harry Potter ones do not count, erherrm), Saw I - VII and a HUGE amount of horror movies which are apparently all the same. Blood, gore, screaming and - my satisfaction.
Audiobooks: Hour after hour of spoken words: Dan Brown - The lost symbol, Ken Follet - Eisfieber, Kafka - Der Prozess, Andreas Eschbach - Der Nobelpreis
Music: Soap and Skin, Heavy Metal of all kinds, Nightwish, Katie Melua, ChloeOST, Raised by swans, Florence and the machine, Corvus Corax and other pseudo middle age music; Mahler, Prokovief, Dvorak. Who'd believe it, there was classical music. Just not that much because I did not want to die in case of emotional overload. Well, huh.
Other: My belovedbeloved friends, dads phone calls, stalking school mates, delirium, this time true madness, hate, pain, memories, tears, desperation, agression, rage, mental overload. Bah.
Negative effects: Staying away from school just to gain a bit energy, just so much I could consider to grap a pencil. Fuck. Locking myself in my room so that Denise ran nearly mad about it. I am sorry, my dear. Closing down the dreaming and visions I had about teamwork and relationships when I againagainagain realized I had always been alone. Brainbreaking experience, my love.
As you see, unfortanely one of my most important pieces so far.
I drew hell and went through it, even if it doesn't look like it in
the end. Really strange experience, yes.
Goodbye, my innocent demon. The human progress of realization has just begun.
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PS: Insider joke, I've hidden a penis in there. Where is it? One cookie for free for the ones who discover it.
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The refraction of life through black opal eyes. I absolutely love the contorted detail and i am sorry that less of your work is up atm. I will fish for a link somewhere yonder the abyss of your page. Oh, and though i happen to be fashionably late to the mad hatter party- i may have earned my cookie. I found it comical how "the dude" is seemingly "pointing away." 😎